Breast Crawl - Baby's First Meal

Mummies to be...watch this video...

it's very interesting...

You might wanna try it (for those who intend to BF their child)

This is an interesting teachnique...just knew about it from a friend...I will try it...hehe

My Hospital checklist

The distance from our house to kjmc is just 5-10 minutes away but still I needed to pack a bag for the big day... The arrival of our prince(insya'allah)

So this is the list (for my reference and also my friends out there)

For me

1) Clothes , kain batik, tudung, socks and selipar

2) Dispo undies, maternity pad and nursing bra

3) Toiletries

4) Harmony breast pump and accessories

5) Breast shells

For Hubby

1) Kain pelekat, t-shirt n seluar pjg

2) Kamera

3) A book (whilst waiting in the labour room with me )

For Baby

1) 2 pasang baju, booties n mittens, a hat

2) Newborn diapers

3) Barut, bedung and selimut

4) Minyak telon (dah order 2 botol(Amway punye) dari kak hazu – sgt best…yang lain dah test, I dun like..hehe)

For Fea?

Maybe just a spare baju, diaper and milk but i don't think she'll be sleeping at the hospital with us. She'll sleep at the house with her aunty Jan.. one night saja bolehkan sayang....kesian pula anak ummi ni nanti...

2nd trip to KJMC

We were late for the appointment last night so we ended up to be the last. So we had to wait roughly1 hour before we could go in to see the doctor which is not bad as we had to wait 3-4 hours before. so it's ok

so when it was our turn to go in sofeah was so excited. She darted straight to the ultra sound machine. "baby, baby" she said as she pointed at the machine. Owh my gosh, my daughter can't wait to see the baby. she wants to be a big sister so bad I think. I don't even think she understands the situation anyway.

Before the doctor scanned we chatted a bit about my progress and the usual stuff. morning sickness and all.Then she asked about my skin, it's so dry(i don't know why, I've been putting a lot of moisturiser lately but it still remains the same...a bit ugly looking) . she asked whether it happened the last time i pregnant and i said, no. Then she said maybe the baby's sex is different this time and smiled...jeng2

Whilst the doctor was scanning my tummy, she took the usual measurement of the baby's head, femur and check whether the baby is rowing alright. then suddenly she spotted something and she showed me. "try and guess what that is" she asked. I was a bit blur so I asked her back "what is it?" she said "it the sex of the baby", me "it is?" so you all want to see it? look at the picture and try to guess what's the sex of our baby this time...hehe

Then I suddenly shouted out "eh bird!" hehe... my husband got a shock and looked closely at the screen. Fea got excited as well as she climbed on the bed and touched my belly. At that time i think she knows what is going on

First Trimester again~

Yup I'm pregnant again...I think...

Need to confirm it by visiting a gyne...Isya'Allah tomorrow

Can't remember the first time I went through this....

Even though it's the second time but still I'm clueless of what's to come

What I can tell you now is that I'm exhausted...

I'm hungry but I don't feel like eating...how?

I miss pregnancy~

One night as me and hubby were having dinner, Hubby suddenly asked me "Do u miss being pregnant?" at first I thought, why should I, I have a lovely daughter now. But then when I think back, I do miss it.

After going through nine months of pregnancy how could I not miss it. During those time I had a life in me. The life that is always with me all the time. I talk to it from time to time. When I'm sad, scared or sometimes a little bit emotional when hubby does something and I would always feel better after talking with the baby inside me whilst rubbing my belly. I love it whenever the baby gives a respond like kicking or punching me or whenever she moves her head it tickles me because of her hair. I love the feeling of being pregnant. I really do miss it.

When I read up my friends blog about them still going through pregnancy. It made me somewhat jealous a little bit. I want that feeling back. Sometimes.

Now that the life has come out of me, I feel really happy. Even though I miss those days being pregnant but having Sofeah now is even more joyful. The feeling of being pregnant is very beautiful. I really can not describe how. If you want to know how beautiful it is, try it(secara halal la ye). For men out there, too bad that you can not get pregnant and feel the beauty of it all.hehe

Can't wait for the next pregnancy experience to come. Insya'Allah jika ada rezeki. But I have to wait another 2 years for that, as my body needs to recover fully first.

To Sofeah, Ummi loves you soo much. You're the most beautiful thing that had ever happened to ummi and ayah. I love you from the moment you were in me. Thank you for giving me the chance of growing you inside me and for being there with me for the past nine months~

Smile Always =)

~Emotional me~

I really do not know WHY???!!~

I cry for every little thing,

I feel really tired even though I'm doing nothing,

I ate a lot lately and continuing eating a lot,

Sometimes, I have a lot of energy to do a lot of the house work around the house

Sometimes, I'm just weak

There are times when I have all the time in the world to rest but my body just refuses to rest. I always want to go out and walk. Doing nothing at home makes the body even more tired.

Whatever it is I think I'm still strong and I know I am. Maybe a little bit scared but I know I can go through this. It is my pregnant hormones(i don't know if this term exist but I'll use it anyway) that makes me do such thing.

My body is exhausted from my daily routine, my back aches, my stomach cramps comes and goes(getting stronger by the day), my baby inside me keeps on kicking as if there is no more space for it to grow, and the contractions sometimes makes it harder for me to even walk or get out of bed, the stomach will harden from time to time(bloated macam ikan butal)..

Are these the signs of labour? I really don't know. This is my first time. What should I expect?What should I do?When is the time I should urge hubby to rush me to the hospital?Is it time?The time is ticking. The anticipation is killing me. Guess I'll just have to wait patiently~

The time will come~

~Smile Alwayz =)

My sincere apology before the journey~

My due date is getting closer though I'm scared of what to come but at the same time I cannot wait for that big day to arrive. All I know is that I might have difficulties in going through this journey but at the end of the day I'll be the most happiest person to see our new member of our family. It will be hubby, me and the baby.

This is an entry to all my friends out there, before I go through this journey I would like to express my sincere apology to all of you. The things that I might have done or said to hurt any of you whether on purpose or not, I truly am sorry for that. Hope you can forgive me.

To all my friends out there please pray for my journey to be a blissful one. Thanks to all that have been giving me support through out. Will keep you guys and gals updated. I still have more or less 2 weeks before my due date. Until then I'll be preparing my self mentally and spiritually for this big journey.

Smile Always =)

Looking into the Mirror~

Last night we received our new furniture..yea!(at long last..). It was our new bedroom set. The set comes with, of course a bed, 2 side tables, a wardrobe and a dressing table together with a stool. The dressing table had a large mirror attached to it which is great because we did not even have a mirror in our bedroom before and only a small mirror which is hung beside an intercom next to the kitchen(I can only see my face in it and not the whole body, plus I'm short and hubby hung it a little bit high for me since he's tall). Since we did not have a mirror in the bedroom I did not have that much time to look myself in the mirror and could not careless how I look like. All I know is that I'm this pregnant women with a belly and that's all. I take mirrors for granted really.

So yesterday was the first time I looked myself in the mirror and saw this huge belly in front of me. I could not believe my eyes as before I only can see the top view. So anyways, it's huge, it's humongous, it's massive. People have been telling me about how huge my belly is but I thought they were exaggerating but now I know that it is as huge as how they said it. I was really shocked and speechless. I stared at the image for quite some time. I just could not believe the size of it. It also made me wonder how my belly can stretch that far out, where did all the extra skin come from? I mean i really had a flat tummy before and now it's bloated..heh..teruk betul..terpana jugak la kejap tengok diri sendiri besar camtu..baby ni besar betul rupanya...or maybe it's because I have a small figure I guess..

The effects of seeing my huge belly is now that I'm feeling a little bit scared. The fear that I had months before came back to haunt me. I kept on wondering whether I can deliver this baby the normal way or by C-section. Owh how I soo wonder how I can give birth the normal way. How eh to push the baby out?..huhue. This is my first time and the fear of delivering a child is quite normal as I don't know what to expect. Feeling scared for that day to come and yet I can't wait for it to come and get it over and done with..hmm. Still counting the days~

Smile Always =)

Many sleepless nights~

Yup as usual and like every other nights I will wake up around 2am to 3am in the morning to go to the toilet and after that getting back to sleep is practically impossible. There are some other nights where I will wake up two to three times just to go to the toilet. Seriously where does all this liquid come from? I don't think I drank that much either. It's good that every time nature calls I Will be awake by it, there are some who just let it out on the bed..hehe..I think..

It is really difficult or rather painful for me to get out of bed sometimes because of the cramps that comes and goes. I have to move really slowly as I don't want to be in more pain and at the same time trying to keep it in until I reach the toilet is quite a task. As people know pregnant women really have weak bladder and also they could not hold it for a long period, so when they feel like they need to go then they need to go..

Talking about last night. As usual went to the toilet around 2.30am then tried going back to sleep..which is impossible because I think the baby is not comfortable and it kept on moving...punching and kicking here and there..I don't know what to do..I kept on tossing and turning trying to get comfortable but i could not and the hot flushes did not help either. I was sweating and the fan is just right in front of me..what an irony..there is also the feeling that I thought I was going to be in labour because of the weird pains that i felt around my tummy and I also waited if there is any signs of me getting in labour such as strong contractions and liquid plus blood coming out down there..until then I did not want to wake hubby as i don't want him to worry too much..thankfully around 3.30am I think I got back to sleep..

And now because of what happened last night, I feel sleepy, tired and at the same time I have a splitting headache..trying really hard to focus until 4.30pm today..I have a strong will to come to work everyday until the day I'm in labour and at the same time my body is telling me to start taking leave because it's getting tired by the day and it needs a lot of rest and sleep..maybe it's time for me to take the leave..what do you think?

I don't want to take my maternity leave early as I want to spend more time at home after giving birth..huhue..I think I can still go to work...hhmm..well people before me did it..why can't I...

Just like to mention, this morning hubby with a happy tone told me about his dream...he had dreamt that I've already given birth to a beautiful daughter named sofeah..kate2 wan "comel betul anak kite, muka macam you..xda muka cam I sangat pon..muka cam you campur dengan muka biena(anak buah die)..".. macam-macam la suami tercinta ni..betul-betul tidak sabar menunggu kelahiran ahli keluarga baru..I'm soo happy to know that my beloved husband is happy and I know that our daughter will be beautiful in every way..Insya'Allah

Smile Alwayz =)