hee...its been a while huh...i guess i'm just too busy picking up my life...is dat how u say it?...i dunno...hmm...my story is i've been busy socializing and building up my relationship wit my hubby to be...hehe...guess who?...just so evryone knows dat i'm happy now..thanks for da support...rite now i'm busy planning for the next step of my life...working?...continue studying which is doing my MA?....and marrying the guy in my dreams...jengjengjeng!
pls pray 4 my happiness as i will pray 4 u aswell...
i guess dats it...until next time k...
SMILE ALWAYZ!!!
Monday, September 3, 2007
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
confusion....
it has been a while since my last entry...i'm not going to write up much this time...just about what is going on in my life in these past few months...hmm...the actual thing is i'm confused with myself...you how people see you up front you seem soo happy but in actual fact you are really sad deep inside...hmm...that is exactly how i feel now...the things from the past is still haunts me n keep on coming back to hurt me...not that i did it on purpose but it always tend to find it's way in showing itself from time to time...
Sure, now i have new friends...meet new people from different background, some are interesting some are just so and so...but i still can not forget the past...yeah, you might say that i need more time and all but it has been a long time. how many more times is needed...the truth is i'm broken...and to put something back together is merely impossible...like a broken mug, eventhough you manage to glue it all up together but the broken bits are still visible...thats how it really is...
To trust another person to be in my life might take a long time...it will take me a long time to fall in love again...if it were up to me i do not want to get married at all...love is hurtful...huhue...do i believe in love anymore?...i'm sure am confused with myself...right now i think i'm just gonna enjoy life and go with the flow...whatever that is in front of me i will take that root...
So to all my friends, please pray for my happy ending...thanks in advance...hehe...i'll pray for you aswell...
Sure, now i have new friends...meet new people from different background, some are interesting some are just so and so...but i still can not forget the past...yeah, you might say that i need more time and all but it has been a long time. how many more times is needed...the truth is i'm broken...and to put something back together is merely impossible...like a broken mug, eventhough you manage to glue it all up together but the broken bits are still visible...thats how it really is...
To trust another person to be in my life might take a long time...it will take me a long time to fall in love again...if it were up to me i do not want to get married at all...love is hurtful...huhue...do i believe in love anymore?...i'm sure am confused with myself...right now i think i'm just gonna enjoy life and go with the flow...whatever that is in front of me i will take that root...
So to all my friends, please pray for my happy ending...thanks in advance...hehe...i'll pray for you aswell...
Monday, July 16, 2007
huhue...from a friend...read up gals...
Aii..bace la yek..mungkin ia dapat membuka mata ko... Aii..bace la yek..mungkin ia dapat membuka mata ko..=P
A relationship coach lays out his 5 golden rules for evaluating the prospects of long-term success. When it comes to making the decision about choosing a life partner, no one wants to make a mistake.
Yet, with a divorce rate of close to 50 percent, it appears that many are making serious mistakes in their approach to finding Mr/Ms Right!
If you ask most couples who are engaged why they're getting married, they'll say: "We're in love." I believe this is the #1 mistake people when they date. Choosing a life partner should never be based on love (alone). Though this may sound not politically correct, there's a profound truth here. Love (alone) is not the basis for getting married.
Rather, love is the result of a good marriage. When the other ingredients are right, then the love will come. Let me say it again: You can't build a lifetime relationship on love alone. You need a lot more.
Here are 5 questions you must ask yourself if you're serious about finding and keeping a life partner.
QUESTION #1: Do we share a common life purpose?
Why is this so important? Let me put it this way: If you're married for 20 or 30 years, that's a long time to live with someone. What do you plan to do with each other all that time? Travel, eat and jog together?
You need to share something deeper and more meaningful. You need a common life purpose. Two things can happen in a marriage. You can grow together, or you can grow apart. Fifty percent of the people out there are apart. To make a marriage work, you need to know what you want out of life and marry someone who wants the same thing.
QUESTION #2: Do I feel safe expressing my feelings and thoughts with this person?
This question goes to the core of the quality of your relationship. Feeling safe means you can communicate openly with this person. The basis of having good communication is trust i.e. trust that I won't get "punished" or hurt for expressing my honest thoughts and feelings. A colleague of mine defines an abusive person as someone with whom you feel afraid to express your thoughts and feelings.
Be honest with yourself on this one. Make sure you feel emotionally safe with the person you plan to marry.
QUESTION #3: Is he/she a mensch?
A mensch is someone who is a refined and sensitive person. How can you test? Here are some suggestions: Do they work on personal growth on a regular basis? Are they serious about improving themselves? A teacher of mine defines a good person as "someone who is always striving to be good and do the right thing." So ask about your significant other: What do they do with their time? Is this person materialistic? usually a materialistic person is not someone whose top priority is haracter refinement.
There are essentially two types of people in the world: People who are dedicated to personal growth and people who are dedicated to seeking comfort. Someone whose goal in life is to be comfortable will put personal comfort ahead of doing the right thing. You need to know that before walking down the aisle.
QUESTION #4: How does he/she treat other people?
The one most important thing that makes any relationship work is the ability to give. By giving, we mean the ability to give another person pleasure. Ask: Is this someone who enjoys giving pleasure to others or are they wrapped up themselves and self-absorbed? To measure this, think about the following:
1) How do they treat people whom they do not have to be nice to, such as a waiters, bus boy, taxi driver etc?
2) How do they treat parents and siblings?
3)Do they have gratitude and appreciation?
4) Do they show respect? If they don't have gratitude for the people who have given them everything, you cannot expect that they'll have gratitude for you - who can't do nearly as much for them! Do they gossip and speak badly about others? Someone who gossips cannot be someone who loves others. You can be sure that someone who treats others poorly will eventually treat you poorly as well.
QUESTION #5: Is there anything I'm hoping to change about this person after we're married?
Too many people make the mistake of marrying someone with the intention of trying to "improve" them after they're married. As a colleague of mine puts it, "You can probably expect someone to change after marriage... for the worse!" If you cannot fully accept this person the way they are now, then you are not ready to marry them. In conclusion, dating doesn't have to be difficult and treacherous. The key is to try leading a little more with your head and less with your heart. It pays to be as objective as possible when you are dating, to be sure to ask questions that will help you get to the key issues. Falling in love is a great feeling but when you wake up with a ring on your finger, you don't want to find yourself in trouble because you didn't do your homework.
A relationship coach lays out his 5 golden rules for evaluating the prospects of long-term success. When it comes to making the decision about choosing a life partner, no one wants to make a mistake.
Yet, with a divorce rate of close to 50 percent, it appears that many are making serious mistakes in their approach to finding Mr/Ms Right!
If you ask most couples who are engaged why they're getting married, they'll say: "We're in love." I believe this is the #1 mistake people when they date. Choosing a life partner should never be based on love (alone). Though this may sound not politically correct, there's a profound truth here. Love (alone) is not the basis for getting married.
Rather, love is the result of a good marriage. When the other ingredients are right, then the love will come. Let me say it again: You can't build a lifetime relationship on love alone. You need a lot more.
Here are 5 questions you must ask yourself if you're serious about finding and keeping a life partner.
QUESTION #1: Do we share a common life purpose?
Why is this so important? Let me put it this way: If you're married for 20 or 30 years, that's a long time to live with someone. What do you plan to do with each other all that time? Travel, eat and jog together?
You need to share something deeper and more meaningful. You need a common life purpose. Two things can happen in a marriage. You can grow together, or you can grow apart. Fifty percent of the people out there are apart. To make a marriage work, you need to know what you want out of life and marry someone who wants the same thing.
QUESTION #2: Do I feel safe expressing my feelings and thoughts with this person?
This question goes to the core of the quality of your relationship. Feeling safe means you can communicate openly with this person. The basis of having good communication is trust i.e. trust that I won't get "punished" or hurt for expressing my honest thoughts and feelings. A colleague of mine defines an abusive person as someone with whom you feel afraid to express your thoughts and feelings.
Be honest with yourself on this one. Make sure you feel emotionally safe with the person you plan to marry.
QUESTION #3: Is he/she a mensch?
A mensch is someone who is a refined and sensitive person. How can you test? Here are some suggestions: Do they work on personal growth on a regular basis? Are they serious about improving themselves? A teacher of mine defines a good person as "someone who is always striving to be good and do the right thing." So ask about your significant other: What do they do with their time? Is this person materialistic? usually a materialistic person is not someone whose top priority is haracter refinement.
There are essentially two types of people in the world: People who are dedicated to personal growth and people who are dedicated to seeking comfort. Someone whose goal in life is to be comfortable will put personal comfort ahead of doing the right thing. You need to know that before walking down the aisle.
QUESTION #4: How does he/she treat other people?
The one most important thing that makes any relationship work is the ability to give. By giving, we mean the ability to give another person pleasure. Ask: Is this someone who enjoys giving pleasure to others or are they wrapped up themselves and self-absorbed? To measure this, think about the following:
1) How do they treat people whom they do not have to be nice to, such as a waiters, bus boy, taxi driver etc?
2) How do they treat parents and siblings?
3)Do they have gratitude and appreciation?
4) Do they show respect? If they don't have gratitude for the people who have given them everything, you cannot expect that they'll have gratitude for you - who can't do nearly as much for them! Do they gossip and speak badly about others? Someone who gossips cannot be someone who loves others. You can be sure that someone who treats others poorly will eventually treat you poorly as well.
QUESTION #5: Is there anything I'm hoping to change about this person after we're married?
Too many people make the mistake of marrying someone with the intention of trying to "improve" them after they're married. As a colleague of mine puts it, "You can probably expect someone to change after marriage... for the worse!" If you cannot fully accept this person the way they are now, then you are not ready to marry them. In conclusion, dating doesn't have to be difficult and treacherous. The key is to try leading a little more with your head and less with your heart. It pays to be as objective as possible when you are dating, to be sure to ask questions that will help you get to the key issues. Falling in love is a great feeling but when you wake up with a ring on your finger, you don't want to find yourself in trouble because you didn't do your homework.
Friday, June 29, 2007
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Kem BTN dan induction...
heh...hallo...baru je blk dari kem BTN di pontian, menarik gak la perisiaannye...meningkatkan lagi semangat patriotik...hee...sbb tue saya menulis dalam bahasa malaysia...saje je...bersemangatn x?...
pi kem kat Pontian Johor...best jugak la...jumpe kawan baru sume...3 hari kem BTN dan 2 hari induction for taaruf.xda byk benda pon nk ckp sebenarnye...saje je rase nak update kan blog ni...lame pulak rase xmenulis...ni lepak kat umah utk 2 hari je...hari isnin dah kene balik UIA ade preparation dan taaruf...tujuan join sebab nk lupakan benda xpatut, xnk fikir benda yg bukan2 dan most of all to have fun...
sepanjang tiga hari dekat kem tu fon kene rampas la kan...xleh gune...memule marah jugak tapi bile dah lame rase cam best plak xde fon...mcm kat skolah dulu bole je kan hidup tanpa telefon bimbit...bese la kat kem BTN akan ade latihan dalam kumpulan dan PDK...pastu ade kawat lagi...mmg seronok la...
xda ape sangat nk tulis...heh...owh on da day nk blik UIA tue ade satu bus yg aircond rosak so kene la pi naik bus lain...panas giler la...heh...so end up kene reshuffle...aku dan 2 org lagi kwn tepakse la naik bus penuh lelaki...pening gler...diorg bese la suke wat bising...tapi aku ttp bersyukur sbb xpyh dok dlm panas...seronok gak...
heh... ade plak terselit B.I...dah la..heh...nanti ade ape2 yg menarik berlaku...aku kan report balik k...hee...
Learn from the past, NO REGRETS....
SMILE ALWAYZZZ.....=)
BE HAPPY!!!
pi kem kat Pontian Johor...best jugak la...jumpe kawan baru sume...3 hari kem BTN dan 2 hari induction for taaruf.xda byk benda pon nk ckp sebenarnye...saje je rase nak update kan blog ni...lame pulak rase xmenulis...ni lepak kat umah utk 2 hari je...hari isnin dah kene balik UIA ade preparation dan taaruf...tujuan join sebab nk lupakan benda xpatut, xnk fikir benda yg bukan2 dan most of all to have fun...
sepanjang tiga hari dekat kem tu fon kene rampas la kan...xleh gune...memule marah jugak tapi bile dah lame rase cam best plak xde fon...mcm kat skolah dulu bole je kan hidup tanpa telefon bimbit...bese la kat kem BTN akan ade latihan dalam kumpulan dan PDK...pastu ade kawat lagi...mmg seronok la...
xda ape sangat nk tulis...heh...owh on da day nk blik UIA tue ade satu bus yg aircond rosak so kene la pi naik bus lain...panas giler la...heh...so end up kene reshuffle...aku dan 2 org lagi kwn tepakse la naik bus penuh lelaki...pening gler...diorg bese la suke wat bising...tapi aku ttp bersyukur sbb xpyh dok dlm panas...seronok gak...
heh... ade plak terselit B.I...dah la..heh...nanti ade ape2 yg menarik berlaku...aku kan report balik k...hee...
Learn from the past, NO REGRETS....
SMILE ALWAYZZZ.....=)
BE HAPPY!!!
Monday, June 11, 2007
Friday, June 8, 2007
The EXtRaOrDiNaRy...
Some say that the extraordinary things can happen in the most ordinary days...Do you think you believe in it?...yeah maybe it could happen but to wait for it to happen is not something you want to do, then it becomes the expected....when you expect something, it happens then it becomes something just ordinary, so better not wait for it...hee...am I confusing you?...well i'm confused myself too...
This is the story of my life, not that I like bragging but sometimes I just have to let it out. to tell my friends is merely impossible coz they are all so happy with their lives and to burden them with my problems it is just not right. so,the only simple way to let it out is through my blog. Anyways now that I am really confused with my life...I just do not understand with some people.some of them are so sensitive at times. ok2...I have this friend, it a he ofcourse...the thing is can a guy be so sensitive about things and its like you can not even breath around him because every little thing that you just somehow seems wrong...I do not understand, everytime I want to send him text messages I have to think real hard to use the right words so I do not hurt him. but it seems to me no matter how I put it, it always seems wrong to him...he says its offensive...huh...the thing is I lived before knowing him even and met many guys the way I say things is the way I am...I do not like to cover and be someone else...whatever it is I survived before this but why this kind of problem arise now...pheww...I'm just tired...
Have you felt that when you are in a relationship your partner will somehow change the way you are...you are changing...not blaming on the other half maybe you blame yourself for changing...the thing is sometimes when you are with someone you are expected to change for them...to suit their needs and to please them...owh ok when you are in Love you do not seem to notice and when you are out of love you start to think back, how stupid were you then...you did all of those stupid things because of him and you yourself eventually becomes someone you do not like and you become a stranger to your ownself...and now he does not like me the way i am now..but I changed in the first place because of him...what an irony...
People around me whether they are my friends or not, they have a choice if the want to still be my friend or become my friend. There is no force at all. now, choices is what we make everyday in our lives. sometimes we made the most stupidest choices and sometimes its one of the greatest choice we have made...no matter how bad or good our choices that we choose in the past it is actually what we have become today. It is how we ended up here now/today.
Sometimes I feel lonely eventhough I am surrounded by family and friends...why is that? am I just not grateful or its just a feeling which I should ignore. I tried so hard sometimes to let it go and have fun but then thats only the outside...in the inside I feel terrible...sometimes when I can escape what I feeling I feel so relieved and 'bersyukur' (thanks to God)...but when the feelings comes I just hate it and everything that is associated with it...I then became a horrible person...
How can you be your ownself when you are haunted with what people say about you in the past that really hurts deep inside. its like you can never be yourself anymore. When you see the person that hurts you, you just do not know how to react infront of them anymore...I have that...it's like you are afraid to make the wrong move and feel so insecure...
Have you got a friend that you feel it is impossible to be friends with them because it is impossible just to yourself without them critisizing you back...it is ok to do it sometimes but to do it all the time is totally absurd....'rimas' it what Malaysians say...and you tend to wonder should you still be friends with them or just let it pass by because you might not see them ever again after a certain time...hmmm...just makes me wonder...
Anyway, I'm writing this blog just to let everything out because I rarely tell anyone about my problems...by writing I feel relieved...so if anyone feel offended with what I wrote I really am sorry...I did not want to hurt your feelings by purpose...just know that I LOVE all my friends, sure there will be hate or unsatisfied with the situation sometimes but it does not stay that way for long because after all you are my friends, always my friends that will stand by me whenever I need them...thanks a lot...hee...
Smile Always....
Be happy k.....
"Big Girls Don't Cry" by Fergie
Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity,
Peace, Serenity
[CHORUS:]
I hope you know,
I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay
[CHORUS]
Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity
[CHORUS]
La Da Da Da Da Da
This is the story of my life, not that I like bragging but sometimes I just have to let it out. to tell my friends is merely impossible coz they are all so happy with their lives and to burden them with my problems it is just not right. so,the only simple way to let it out is through my blog. Anyways now that I am really confused with my life...I just do not understand with some people.some of them are so sensitive at times. ok2...I have this friend, it a he ofcourse...the thing is can a guy be so sensitive about things and its like you can not even breath around him because every little thing that you just somehow seems wrong...I do not understand, everytime I want to send him text messages I have to think real hard to use the right words so I do not hurt him. but it seems to me no matter how I put it, it always seems wrong to him...he says its offensive...huh...the thing is I lived before knowing him even and met many guys the way I say things is the way I am...I do not like to cover and be someone else...whatever it is I survived before this but why this kind of problem arise now...pheww...I'm just tired...
Have you felt that when you are in a relationship your partner will somehow change the way you are...you are changing...not blaming on the other half maybe you blame yourself for changing...the thing is sometimes when you are with someone you are expected to change for them...to suit their needs and to please them...owh ok when you are in Love you do not seem to notice and when you are out of love you start to think back, how stupid were you then...you did all of those stupid things because of him and you yourself eventually becomes someone you do not like and you become a stranger to your ownself...and now he does not like me the way i am now..but I changed in the first place because of him...what an irony...
People around me whether they are my friends or not, they have a choice if the want to still be my friend or become my friend. There is no force at all. now, choices is what we make everyday in our lives. sometimes we made the most stupidest choices and sometimes its one of the greatest choice we have made...no matter how bad or good our choices that we choose in the past it is actually what we have become today. It is how we ended up here now/today.
Sometimes I feel lonely eventhough I am surrounded by family and friends...why is that? am I just not grateful or its just a feeling which I should ignore. I tried so hard sometimes to let it go and have fun but then thats only the outside...in the inside I feel terrible...sometimes when I can escape what I feeling I feel so relieved and 'bersyukur' (thanks to God)...but when the feelings comes I just hate it and everything that is associated with it...I then became a horrible person...
How can you be your ownself when you are haunted with what people say about you in the past that really hurts deep inside. its like you can never be yourself anymore. When you see the person that hurts you, you just do not know how to react infront of them anymore...I have that...it's like you are afraid to make the wrong move and feel so insecure...
Have you got a friend that you feel it is impossible to be friends with them because it is impossible just to yourself without them critisizing you back...it is ok to do it sometimes but to do it all the time is totally absurd....'rimas' it what Malaysians say...and you tend to wonder should you still be friends with them or just let it pass by because you might not see them ever again after a certain time...hmmm...just makes me wonder...
Anyway, I'm writing this blog just to let everything out because I rarely tell anyone about my problems...by writing I feel relieved...so if anyone feel offended with what I wrote I really am sorry...I did not want to hurt your feelings by purpose...just know that I LOVE all my friends, sure there will be hate or unsatisfied with the situation sometimes but it does not stay that way for long because after all you are my friends, always my friends that will stand by me whenever I need them...thanks a lot...hee...
Smile Always....
Be happy k.....
"Big Girls Don't Cry" by Fergie
Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity,
Peace, Serenity
[CHORUS:]
I hope you know,
I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay
[CHORUS]
Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity
[CHORUS]
La Da Da Da Da Da
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