Trying to find yourself?...

There is always someone out there trying to find their way, trying to find their place, trying to be themselves. Sometimes it is better to feel like you are the only one in the world struggeling, frustrated, unsatisfied, being left behind. That feeling is a lie and if you just hold on, find the courage to face it all for another day someone or something will find you and make it all look OK because we all need a little help sometimes. Someone to help us to hear the music in the world, to be reminded that it won't always be that way. That someone is out there and that someone will find you!...

This is exacly how i feel. I feel lost trying to find something or rather someone to hold on to, I'm loosing my grip, trying really hard to move on, and everytime it seems like i'm moving but actually I'm not. I'm stuck!.I actually miss myself, I miss smiling and being happy without all the worries in the world. The fact is I really want my old self back, the happy me. I can't tell others about my problems because truly they do not understand, I can't tell the whole truth in fact. The best thing is just to keep it to myself. owh ok, as we grow up we have more and more problems, we just have to learn and cope with it. If I could I would turn back time and have fun and smile all I want, I want to be like children running around without any problems in mind.

There are moments in our lives that we feel like we live on crossroads, the choices we make in those moment can define the rest of our days ofcourse when we face the unknown makes we want to turn and go back.

There are moments in our lives where we find ourselves on crossroads, afraid, confused without a roadmap or guide. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days, ofcourse when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back, but once in a while people push on to something better, something found just beyond the pain, going it alone and just beyond the courage and the bravery to take someone in or to give someone a second chance.

Something beyonD the quiet persistence of a dream because it is only when you are tested that you truly discover who you are and it is only when you are tested you discover who you can be. the person who you want to be does exist, somewhere on the otherside of hardwork and faith and belief and heartache and fear of what lies ahead.

The reality is that pain is there to tell you something. It has reasons for it's existance. You just have to find it or maybe it will come to you without you noticing it.

Whatever it is, just have faith and believe in GOD, be patient, your life might just change in a split second. People are being tested because only then they really know what they are worth. Be strong.

I just hope that I can smile and laugh again as I used to without lying to myself or to anyone else. We were taught from we were kids that honesty is the best policy. But then the fact is lying is a necessity. We lie to ourselves because the truth hurts. No matter how hard we try to ignore it eventually our lives will fall away whether we like it or not. But here's the truth about the truth, it hurts so we lie. We have to give up the things we want the most because it is the right thing to do.

This time my entry is quite confusing. The contents is all mixed up and sometimes I contradict myself. Nevertheless, this is how I feel, confused, do not know which direction I should be heading, or which is the right path.Guess I can only turn to GOD and pray for answers.

Thank You for reading, Smile Always k!...hold your chin up high..You can do this...

BERUSAHA!!!

Children or grown ups?

After careful consideration and many sleepless nights, there is no such things as grown ups. we move on, we move out, we move away from our families and form our own, but the basic insecurities, the basic fears then all those hold wounds just grew up with us, and just when we think that life ends, circumstance have forced us to truly once and for all becoming an adult.

We get bigger, we get taller, we get older but for the most part we are still a bunch of kids running around the playground trying to fit in.

People say that it is impossible to grow up, without parents to defy, we brake the rules we make for ourselves. we throw tantrums when things do not go our way. we whisper secrets to our bestfriend in the dark. we look for comfort where we can find it and against all logic, against all experience, like children we never give up hope.

There is a brighter side of life...

Actually i dunno how to begin writing this entry...there is so much going on in my life up to the extent that i don't know how to express it anymore...

So to all members of my family & friends that have been so supportive through out n patiently listening to me bragging about mylife i just want to say how I am greatful to have all of u...can't say thank u enough...love u all...

Let what happened to me be a lesson to myself and not to repeat it in the future, atleast i have gained the experience and actually trying to pull through really hard...i know i can make it...just need time...=)

To forget everything that i had in the past is virtually impossible...i can not just rub it out...so i'm really trying hard, evethough it hurts but i have to move on...can't forget the past in a short time because u know why?...if something were to spark a little part of that memory i might breakdown again...so i have to really slow down...maybe it's hard but it is not impossible...

Sometimes people say strive for what you want...i did strive and i did not achieve my goal...but it does not mean that i have to give up...nope, i just have to find other ways to solve the problems and achieve what i want in life...

It is true when people say dat i am still young, i have more time to improve myself and achieve what i want...i have got a long way to go...so to the future,...watch out!...i'm coming...haha...

Guess that is it from me...till next time...which i don't know when...hope it comes soon...hee....

To All the people out there who feels depress all the time, please, please do not feel that way...it is just wasting your time...do other things, find a new hobby, just do something that makes you happy and proud with yourselves...moping around just makes things worse, believe me when i say dat it does not give much benefit...it is ok to cry sometimes but u have to limit yourselves....chill, you still have a great family & friends...

JUst remember, ur family & friends will always be there for you no matter what...and also be thankful with what u have. Last advice from me 'stop complaining, live life to the fullest and go wit da flow'

TIME...

Time takes pleasure in kicking our asses, for even the strongest of us, it seems to play tricks, slowing down, hovering until it freezes leaving us stuck in a moment unable to move in one direction or the other.

Time flies,time waits for no man, time heals all wounds, all anyone of us wants is more time, time to stand up, time to grow up, time to let go. TIME...