Nope...still not moving, plus i'm beyond help now...some people say that leave the person in their sadness for a while because then they will learn on their own how to move on...i think that's what i need to do until one day i feel how stupid to feed this sadness and finaly move on forever without turning back...things in the past happened for a reason...we just need to learn from them and not to repeat the same mistakes..huhue...it's been hard for me, and for my friends i guess...because i've been this happy go lucky kind of person and suddenly i'm changing to being someone dark and twisty inside...i guess you can't always feel happy all the time can you?...so it's ok to feel sad sometimes...isn't it?...time will tell thats what a friend once told me...
Short semester has just started and i'm moving back and forth from UIA and home...I can't stay in UIA for a long time neither can I go out of my house...i guess for the mean time it is safer for me to stay in my comfort zone...until someone or something will come and get me...everyone needs help from time to time, someone to look out for them, to make sure that they are OK, make sure that they are ready...well I haven't got that yet...waiting, I guess for that time to come.
I hope I will get better soon...I want to feel better...I don't want to feel stuck and not moving, couped up in the past...it is soo sad and soo hard to deal with...to all my friends out there, to the people that cared for me soo much thank you for ur support, just pray that i will get better soon...thanks again...I think I will be fine...I guess i just need time to HEAL and to MOVE ON...
PATHETIC is the word I use to describe myself rite know...huhue..
I guess this is the song that describes me now...
Atrist: the veronicas
song: when it falls apart
i'm having the day from hell,
it was all going so well (before you came)and you told me you needed space,
with a kiss on the side my face (not again)
and not to mention (the tears, ashame)
but i should have kicked your (ass instead)
i need intervention attention
to stop temptation to scream
cause baby
everything is fed up straight from the heart
tell me what do you do,
when it all falls apart
gotta pick myself up
where do i start
cuz i can't turn to you
when it all falls apart
no
don't know where i parked my car
don't know who my real friends are (anymore)
i put my faith in you
what a stupid thing to do (when it rains it pours)
and not to mention (i drank too much)
i'm feeling hung over (and out of touch)
i need intervention
attention to stop temptation to scream
cause babyeverything is fed up straight from the heart
tell me what do you do,
when it all falls apart
gotta pick myself up
where do i start
cuz i can't turn to you
when it all falls apart
no
can it be easier?
can i just change my life?
cause it just seems to go bad everytime
will i be mending?
another one ending once again
everything is fed up straight from the heart
tell me what do you do,
when it all falls apart
gotta pick myself up (out)
where do i startcuz i can't turn to you
when it all falls apart
no (x2)
falls apart
gotta pick myself out cause things are mended
- SMILE ALWAYZ =) -
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