Friday, April 24, 2009

My wall paper


Hehe..saja letak ini..Ini adalah wall paper kat comp di ofis..hehe...tgk ade gambo sape kat corner tue..nk tulis blog but not in the mood yet..hehe

yang skin kat balakang tue aku main lukis sendiri jer, time bosan ape lagi bukak jer paint and conteng2 then colour la..hehe..tau mcm hodoh tp suke plak tgk..hehe

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

What's next!

During those times when hubby and me were still courting I did not have any interest. Like hubby, his interests are in music, football and photography but me? nothing.
Medela Harmony - Waiting for Jannah to send this pump~ can't wait

When we got married and I was pregnant with our daughter I started to develop interest in baby stuffs like strollers, car seats, bottles, beddings, toys, cloth diapers and breast pumps(it counts because it's a baby related thing) excluding clothes. Up until today I think that I'm still obsess with baby stuffs. I love it when my friends ask about which bottle do I think is good, my opinions on the best pump, or what kind of strollers which is practical for traveling.

Now, I think it is time for me to move on~ I've been thinking lately what do I really want to do next. I mean I can't be stuck with searching for babies stuff until I'm 4o can I.

The first option is to start baking. Since my dream is to open up a bakery one day so to master all the baking skills I better start from now I think. I used to love baking back when I was in the UK where all the ingredients are cheap like whip cream and fine quality flour but over here it's a little bit pricey. And since we live on our own, we don't have an oven and a mixer yet. So need to save up for that first. We did have enough money to buy an oven but i could not find the right one. When I found one, it was no longer in stock so we had to wait another month. By that time we spent the money on other things instead. hehe

The second option is doing felt crafts. It's quite interesting. I was inspired by liyana's blog and her friend's blog. I like it because the things they sew from felt are soo cute. You have to be really creative in this area. I was thinking of stitching flash cards made of felt for my daughter Sofeah. I love doing crafts from time to time but then again I think this interest would die out as I'm not that rajin la~.

So to my friends out there, what do you think I should pursue next?

Friday, April 10, 2009

My emotions~


Can I do things that I want to do for a change?
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I hate this feeling called guilt and conscience~
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I'm not happy~
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I'm torn in between~
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I have to satisfy everybody? impossible~
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I want my way~
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Tired
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Exhausted
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I need rest
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Hate working on Saturdays~
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Need more time to spend with my NEW family~
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I have a new family now
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My obligations now is towards my husband n my family
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Feel like flying away
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I need a holiday
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but that's just running away~
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I feel like crying
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but it won't help much
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Every time i tried to escape there's always something pulling me back
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I don't want to carry this burden anymore
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Why can't they understand~
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They need to let go~
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otherwise forever my conscience will bug me
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and never will I rest in Peace~

~~UNhappy Me~~

Monday, April 6, 2009

Adakah anda prejudis?


Perbualan;

1) Si A: Selalu makan sorg ke?
Si B: A'ah, kat company tu saya sorg jer melayu, yang lain chinese diorg pi mkn kat tempat
non-halal.
Si A: wah, tanak tukar keje ke?(muka terkejut)
Si B: (dalam hati... e'eh nape nk tukar keje pulak) hmm, tengah cari keje barulah sbb dok jauh.

2) Si C: Nak mengajar kat college T*** risau skit la sbb ramai bangsa asing. Tau la diorg ni
macam mane..heh
Si D: ha tue la...lagi2 bangsa C*** diorg ni dah la kedekut, macam2 hal la. Bangsa I**** pon
same..tah paper..tak betul
Si C: Tapi tak sume macam tue..ade je yang baik
Si D: mmg ade la tapi kebayakannye macam tue

3) Si E: wah ko nak mengajar kat College T*** biar betul. ko tau tak kat sane ramai C***. Diorg
ni susah sikit nak mengajar. Nakal. Paham2 je la kan. Lagi2 swasta ni.
Si F: Owh yeh. tapi tak sume macam tue kan..hmm

Kenapa kite selalu labelkan bangsa ini itu dan bangsa itu ini. Tidak kah kita sedar bahawa semua insan di dunia ini datang dari Allah S.W.T. Semuanya sama tak kira bangsa. Nak kate C*** kedekut, corrupt, berkira la ape. Macam la bangsa M***** tue bagus sangat. Allah telah mencipta pelbagai kaum supaya kita berkenalan antara satu sama lain bukannya untuk kita cari keburukkan mereka.

Ye, aku mengaku bahawa dulu aku pernah tergolong dalam invidu yang mengata bangsa lain itu ini tetapi setelah bekerja di company yang aku seorang sahaja melayu dan yang lain semua cina telah mengajar aku supaya tidak lagi menjadi prejudis. Hendak tahu mengapa?

1) Pada mulanya saya telah di offer pekerjaan di satu kolej dimana 98% adalah bangsa melayu kemudian saya ditolak kerana saya disahkan mengandung. Bangsa sendiri sanggup mengetepikan saya disaat saya betul2 memerlukan kerja. Saya mengandung sahaja bukannya saya ade sakit kronik ke.

2) Setelah 3 bulan mengandung, saya dapat panggilan untuk temu duga. Saya beritahu awal2 bahawa saya mengandung kerana tidak mahu membuang masa mereka. Walaupun saya sudah nyatakan keadaan saya, company ini besungguh-sungguh hendak saya datang untuk temu duga. Akhirnya saya dapat juga kerja di company yang 100% cina kecuali saya. Tengok bertapa baik dan mulianya mereka kerana menerima saya. Tidak memandang rendah terhadap saya dan terima saya kerana saya kebolehan saya dan bukan kerana saya berbadan dua.

3) Sedang saya sarat lagi megandung saya dapat lagi satu panggilan untuk temu duga. Ini perbualan saya antara interviewer itu.

Saya: Saya mengandung 8 bulan dah ni, boleh ke?
Si minah: eh kenapa pula? datang je la
Saya: ye la separuh company tanak orang mengandung ni
Si Minah: Ala company lain tue mengada2 jer. Datang la, look forward seeing you.
Saya: owh terima kasih2..hehe

Ini juga merupakan company cina. Tengok sape yang prejudis dan kedekut sekarang ni.

4) Walaupun saya seorang sahaja melayu yang bekerja di syarikat ini, mereka tetap memberi layanan yang baik. Tidak ada prejudis. Kadang2 ada juga mereka ajak makan bersama di kedai mamak supaya saya tidak keseorangan. Mereka juga pernah cuba mencarikan seorang lagi pekerja melayu untuk teman saya. Tetapi dia tidak kerja lama kerana dapat tawaran untuk melanjutkan pelajaran.

Senang kate kita tidak boleh prejudis dan labelkan setiap orang itu hanya berdasarkan kaum sahaja. Get to know them as an individual then you'll know the real them rather than just judge them at first sight according to their race.

Tak perlu la nak bangga sangat dengan bangsa M*****. Setiap orang ada kelemahan masing2 yang tidak mengikut bangsa.

Fikirkan lah ye~

Friday, April 3, 2009

6 amalan harian seorang Muslimah~

Setiap hari Khamis dalam perjanan pulang ke rumah kami suamiku akan kongsi bersama ilmu yang telah beliau pelajari semasa mendengar tazkirah tengah hari di pejabatnya. Semalam adalah tentang enam perkara wanita perlu lakukan dari hadith yang di huraikan oleh Imam Al-Ghazali.

Pertama - Masuk sahaja waktu terus pergi menunaikan solat.
Kedua - baca Al-Quran setiap hari.
Ketiga - membaca satu hadith setiap hari kepada anaknya.
Keempat - mengamalkan membaca doa harian.
Kelima - hidup secara sederhana.
Keenam - memberi motivasi kepada suami, anak-anak dan juga orang disekeliling.

Saya akan sedaya upaya mempraktikkan dalam kehidupan seharian saya.

Off topik sket, setiap insan di dunia ini milik Allah S.W.T. Kita tidak ada hak mengaku bahawa suami atau isteri mahupun anak kita adalah milik kita. Sebagai isteri yang solehah kita tidak ada hak untuk menghalang suami dari menikahi wanita lain jika suami cukup syarat untuk menikahi perempuan itu. Ini adalah hak yang diberikan oleh Allah S.W.T kepada lelaki. Siapalah kita menidakkan hak itu. Anak juga bukan milik kita. Kita hanya diberi amanah dari Allah S.W.T untuk menjaga dan mendidik anak-anak dengan baik sahaja.

Fikirkan lah ye~

Friday, March 27, 2009

One month to go~

Children do grow faster than you think. Before you know it, they've already graduated from college and got married and started to have their own children. We as parents getting older by the day and did not realise how time flew soo fast and still wondering how we got there in the first place and how it turn out to be that way. Well in my case my darling daughter will start on solid food in one months time. It seems like it was yesterday she was born.

At the age of 4 months old Sofeah has already discovered her hands, fingers and foot. She'll put any of those in her mouth and suck them whenever she gets the chance to. Sometimes her toys or our hands will end up in her mouth too. By the time she reached 4 months and 2 weeks old, everytime she sees me or her ayah eat she will imitate us chew our food and drool. I pity her at times but I know her stomach, intestines and kidneys are not ready for solid foods yet until she reaches 6 months old. This is because she is exclusively breastfeeding, unlike babies that drink formula milk their intestines are more mature to accept solid foods as early as 4 months old. Babies that drinks formula milk, their intestines works twice as hard to process the formula milk compared to babies being breastfed. Breast milk substances are finer compared to formula milk. So until then we can not feed her any solids.

Now, Sofeah has turned 5 months old. Still drooling whenever we ate our dinner. This is what I always say to her each time "only one month to go, be patient OK. I'll feed you plain porridge and some apple puree"(yes, i do speak in English to her. We're practicing OPOL- one parent one language). Only one month to go I'm so hyped to give Sofeah solids. I've collected some recipes from the net for me to cook for her and I've also learnt how to store them like EBM. Since babies only eat 1-2 spoon of solids per feeding as an introductory to solids, I can't be cooking just 1-2 spoon of food only can I. So I'll need to organize it and store it in the freezer. Even though hubby suggests that we can just go out and buy those baby food in the jar to make things easier for me of course but I still think it's healthier this way. We don't know how the bottle foods are processed do we plus we can save a lot.

Below are some basic guidelines for me in feeding Sofeah. Courtesy of mama_miya susuibu.com(It's in bahasa so I've translated it to English)

Servings according to their age

For 6-7 months old baby;

1) drink at least 4 bottles of 5-6oz of breast milk per day
2) servings:
~ 1-3 spoon(sudu besar) of carbohidrate grains (rice, oats, sweet potatoes) = 2 times a day
OR
~ 2-3 spoon of vegetables = 2 times a day
OR
~ 2-3 spoon or 2oz of fruit juice
OR
~ 1-2 spoon of meat or meat alternatives (mashed peas/tofu/beans/anchovies)

Around 3 meals per day

Example:

a) breakfast at 7.30am 1 spoon of oats, 2 spoons of fruit puree
b) lunch 12noon 1 spoons of oat/potato/pasta/rice, 2 spoons of vegetables
c) dinner at 6pm 2 spoons of oats/rice, with tofu/beans/fruit juice

For 8-9 months babies the servings will increase 2-3 spoon for each type of food and drink 6-9oz of milk 3 times a day.

For 9-10 months babies the servings will increase 2-3 spoon from 8-9month old servings and they should drink 9oz of milk three times a day.

For babies 1 year and above:
1) carbohydate grains - 4 spoon, 3 times a day
2) 9oz of milk per day
3) 3-4 spoon of vegetables, 3 times a day
4) 3-4 spoon of fruits, 2 times a day/5oz of juice twice a day
5) 1-2 spoon of meat or meat alternatives, twice a day.

These are only basic guidelines. Some may do it differently.

Besides looking out for baby food recipes I've also looked up the things I need to buy, like the utensils and also the containers that will be used to store her food in the freezer. This is my list;
1) food grinder
2) dadih containers or little containers (since I'll be putting one 1-2 spoon of food in each container, so 1 container per feeding)
3) feeding spoon(maybe rubber base so that it would not injure her gum)

Friday, March 13, 2009

Rasa bersalah~

Sedangku menikmati juadah tengah hari tempoh hari tiba-tiba sahaja datang perasaan sebak di hati ini. Bukannya apa. Sebelum turun untuk makan saya ada terbaca satu blog tentang sepasang suami Isteri yang duduk di hospital dan tidak putus asa berdoa supaya anak keduanya pulih dari komplikasi jantung yang menjadi teruk semakin hari. Aku berasa syukur tak terhingga kerana dikurniakan bayi yang sihat. Alhamdulillah. Begitu tabah sepasang suami isteri itu. Aku tidak dapat bayangkan diriku sendiri bagaimana bila berhadapan dengan situasi begitu.

Di blog yang sama juga ku belek-belek entry yang telah lama ditulis. Ada tentang ayahnya meminta maaf kepada anak sulungnya kerana tidak dapat meluangkan masa yang banyak untuk anaknya dan terpaksa bekerja keras untuk mencari rezeki. Semasa membaca entry ini air mataku mengalir kerana terbayangkan anakku dirumah. Aku tiba-tiba sahaja rasa bersalah sangat dengan anakku kerana aku juga begitu. Awal pagi sudah keluar untuk ke pejabat dan balik lewat petang. Malah hari Sabtu juga saya perlu kerja sekerat hari. Hanya hari ahad sahaja saya ada masa seharian dengan anak tercinta.

Namun begitu saya tetap bersyukur kerana saya masih ada sedekit masa untuk suami dan anak saya. Ada yang kurang bernasib baik dari saya. walaupun hari sabtu saya bekerja sekerat hari saya anggap itu sebagai giliran suami saya pula bermanja-manja dengan anak saya kerana dia sering merungut anak selalu berkepit dengan saya sahaja apabila masa menyusu.

Sekian sudah catitan saya yang sekema ini. Maaf jika ianya seperti berterabur dan perkataan yansg saya gunakan tidak sesuai.

Smile Alwayz~

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