Aduhai anakku~

Ikutilah kisah anakku Nur Alya Sofeah disini

Ni favourite cartoon chracters fea

Sesuatu yang rambang~

Malas nak tulis English sebab tanak org yang tak berkenaan bace..heh

1) Earthquake di padang menakutkan sungguh. Dekat dah dengan Malaysia tue. Takleh nk imagine kalau kite in their shoes. Dah la I, hubby n fea kat 3 tempat berlainan(xde kaitan but just felt like writing this down)..huhue

2) Tiap-tiap pagi hantar fea ke nursery mesti rase berat hati. Sedih sangat. Bile fea nangis jer lagi sedih umminye. Fea skang dah pandai dakap ummi atau ayahnye(depends sape yang hantar die ke nursery) kuat-kuat sebab tanak pi nursery. Hari isnin hari paling susah skali sebab weekends die dah selesa dok ngn ummi dan ayahnye kat rumah.

3) Benar susuibu adalah yang terbaik utk bayi sampai umur mereka 2 tahun la max tapi ada jugak ibu-ibu diluar sana tak mampu nak susukan anak mereka dengan susu ibu. Dah guna macam-macam cara tapi still tak berjaya juga. Kesian juga kat mereka ni. Thus, kita jangan la cepat sgt nak mengutuk or nak pandang rendah and judge these mothers yang bagi susu formula kat baby. Mereka pon sayang baby diorg juga. Aku mengaku dulu aku juga bangga sgt dapat susukan anak dengan susuibu dan pandang serong jugak terhadap mothers yang bagi susu formula ni tapi sekarang tidak lagi since hubby tegur "awak dengan kawan-kawan awak ni(kawan forum) jangan la pandang rendah sgt. Bebile jer Allah boleh tarik balik nikmat tu baru tau, plus jangan la riak sangat, Allah tak suka. Biarla kita bersederhana" owh ok, these aren't exacly his words.

4) Semalam dan hari sabtu kami sekeluarga busy beraya here and there. Ntah kat mane2 ceruk tah kami pi. Susah betul nak cari rumah2 org2 ni. Dah la saya dan hubby ni buta jalan lagi susah la keadaanya. Semalam pi rumah kawan hubby kat segambut and lalu kat jalan mont kiara 3, masuk jer simpang tue "wah2 mewahnye kawasan ni, org dok kat sini sure kaya gile punye" then 500m kehadapan terus masuk slum area macam rumah setinggan la ape...terkejut kejap.."haih, pelik betul, macam mane bole kat luar td rumah mewah..hay ya...darjat berlainan yang ketara ni dok sebelah2 je". Hubby and me baru realize ntah kat mane2 ceruk pon ada orang duduk.heh.punye la dok kat dunia sendiri jer selama ni...ish2

5) Raya taun ni seronok la compared to last year sebab taun ni beraya dengan puteri sulung kami and saya pon ade energy nak pi berjalan merata. Last year kan saya mengandung so dok umah je la. Plus, last year sume barang and minyak mahal so tak ramai yang buat open house.heh

~SEAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR BATIN~

Kami sekeluarga ingin mengucapkan selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin kepada semua.

Kepada sesiapa yang balik kampung tu berhati2 dijalan raya ye~

Ni first time fea beraya, excitednya, lagi2 fea dah pandai berjalan sekarang ni. sure laju je die kejar ayam2 dikampung. Can't wait! If ada gambar fea kejar ayam saya akan uploadkan disini.

##Insya'Allah kami akan bertolak ke kampung awal2 pagi esok, balik Rompin dulu yeh. then balik Pekan and last Kg. New Zealand.##

Milk production declining~

From the title you've guessed it. My milk production is running low. My stock in the fridge is running out. From around 50 bottles I have stocked up for the past month now what is left is around 10 bottles and I'm getting worried. Not that I did not drink a lot. I do, but I have to drink more than that lot because of the climate today. Fea drinks a lot too so that is why the backup supplies are also running low.

So what I have to do now is try harder to produce more. I have to eat a lot of other supplements for more milk. down here is the list of food I should consume. (source: susuibu.com)

Makanan yang menambah dan mengurangkan air susu ibu

Makanan Menambah atau Mengurangkan Susu Ibu

Sesetengah makanan memberi kesan kepada penghasilan susu ibu, sama ada menambah atau mengurangkannya... Jadi hati-hati apabila memilih makanan anda... Antara makanan yang mungkin menambah penghasilan susu ibu

* Makan banyak makanan mengandungi vitamin B seperti kekacang, dal.
* Kurma – makan begitu sahaja atau dihancurkan sedikit dan dimasukkan ke dalam susu panas.
* Jambu batu, betik – makan begitu sahaja.
* Lobak putih, peria – dijadikan jus atau sup.
* Sawi, kacang panjang, kacang buncis, jagung muda – goreng atau sup.
* Daun atau pucuk meranti masak lemak putih, tumis air atau goreng.
* Klorofil
* Chlorella
* Oat – dijadikan minuman, biskut, bubur atau salutan pada makanan sebelum dimasak.
* Madu – gunakan sebagai pemanis dalam minuman, sapuan pada roti atau cicah pada lempeng susu beroat
* Air longan – boleh beli longan kering dari pasaraya dan direbus sehingga kembang.
Longan kering salah satu bahan dalam air laichikang

* Red raspberry leaves – suplemen dari farmasi
* Halba – direndam dalam air mendidih atau dimasukkan ke dalam masakan.
* Habbatus sauda atau jintan hitam.
* Barli – air atau bubur barli.
* Pucuk manis – masak lemak bersama ubi keledek.
* Pucuk pegaga – dijadikan ulam atau jus.
* Jantung pisang dicelur atau masak lemak.
* Daun kucai – goreng bersama tauge dengan tauhu dan tempe.
* Pucuk betik atau bunga betik jantan.
* Air soya dan produk soya seperti tauhu, taufufa, tempe
* Air horlicks
* Susu dan produk tenusu
* Teh hijau jepun
* Makanan mengandung yis seperti roti, donut, tapai pulut dan sebagainya.
* Bawang putih mengandungi banyak sulfur yang bagus untuk sendi dan membantu penghasilan susu.
* Ubat homeopati.

Makanan yang perlu dielakkan

* Herba seperti Parsli,Peppermint, Sage, Oregano,
*Spageti bolognese? Sekali-sekala okey!

#thanks to mamaANA for listing it out#

Other tips you can click here ######

I'm just terrible~

This morning is the second time my daughter fell off our bed. I should have known better. I should have put her in her cot before doing other thing. After the incident she cried and when she has calmed down she was very quite. She didn't want to move. She just lay down. Maybe she was terrified. The fall shocked her. What I fear most is her health. I worry she might have broke her bones from the fall or the worse, bleeding in her brains. I fear for the worst. I'm a terrible mother. A crazy woman can do a better job at being a mother. I'm just down. Not a good day today. She deserves better. I'm a bad example.

Note for my dear daughter, Nur Alya Sofeah,

No matter how loud you cry and scream as a sign of protest when I or ayah put you in your car seat or your cot we will put on a deaf ear as we know that's the safest place for you. We love you soo much dear. I'll try my best not to neglect you in the future.

Your sorry mother,

*I feel like I've failed being a good mother. I've never felt so disappointed with myself like what I'm feeling now. I'll cry just thinking about it *

What have I been upto~

Alright. Here's the highlight of what's going on with my life up to date.

I've been very busy because I've just started teaching. The first day I came in, straight away they assigned me to a class to teach. I was at the state of shock. I have not taught a class ever and I was expecting for them to at least give me some training or an introduction before handing me the task to teach. Anyway, I had only 2 students and they're both good students. The class was ok. They also have their own textbook and workbook. So all I have to do is follow the book and play the tape. It's easy right. Yeah I know. Everyday I only have one class for 2 hours. It's alright isn't it. The times that I'm not teaching I'll just sit in the teacher's room and do some paper work and at times prepare for the next class.

Because I don't have any experience in teaching I have to go for a teaching course which runs for 4 Saturdays from 9am until 6pm in the evening. Yeah, it's tiring but it's ok I guess. On the bright side after I've completed this course I'll have a certificate in teaching and I can include this in the resume as well. Great huh. I just have to bare with it for only 1 month.

I'm now in the third week at my new job as a lecturer. My night classes has started. I need to teach from 6.30pm until 8.30pm every Wednesday and the next day I'll get a half day off. Yippy. I can spend some time with my daughter at home. The time I'll be looking forward to every week. Now we're coming close to mid-semester. Guess what I'm busy with? Yeah that's right. I have to make questions for their mid-semester exams. huu~

It's been a pleasure working at the new place as my colleagues are great. All very supportive and we act as a big family here. It's very different from the place I worked before where everybody talks in Mandarin except me and every meeting they have they'll exclude me because it's easier to conduct the meeting in mandarin compared to conducting it in English. Here I feel like I have contributed something everyday rather than sitting at the office and stare at the computer until office hour ends. yeah , that's what I've been doing for the whole year last year.

As for now, I just go into the class and teach for 2 hours, then once a month we have to go on a field trip, there are also classes in the multimedia lab where I just assign them their assignment in the course ware whilst I browse the Internet for the 2 hours and every Friday we have a practical class where we play games and watch the movies. You might think it's easy (not that it's not) it's just the paper work I have to do at the office is quite taxing. Hate it. Once in a while my colleague will complain about the amount of paper work we have to do. He always says that this college likes to butcher trees because we're wasting a lot of paper doing these stuff. Why can't we just key in the computer. Saves time and space at the same time but nooo,they still want paper.

Here is the picture of me at the CITC (Certificate In Teaching Course) class.


Smile Always~ =)

HAppy Mothers day to me?~

I'm a mother now~
Didn't realize it until someone wished me Happy mother's day..
and now I'm one of the mother being celebrated on mothers day..
because I'm now a mother

Owh I couldn't believe it~
I'm a mother now!
HOw time flies and in the past I never thought of being a mother so soon..

So anyways HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ME and ALL THE MOTHERS around the GLobe~

Buli jalan raya & award?~

Meh sini daku nak bercerita pasal buli jalan raya...

Sedangku drive ke tempat keje dengan hati girang gemilang melayan anak dalam car seat kat sebelah tibe2 plak ade mamat bawak kete toyota wish kat belakang honk dan pasang high beam.

Aku ape lagi..hangin dan dengan keras kepala refuse untuk ketepi sebab kurang hajar sedemikian rupe..aku bawak slow n steady..die nk wat ape kat belakang lantak die la.

Lagipon xde la aku bwk slow macam nenek tua ke ape..bawak 80..ok la kan since itu la speed limit kat jalan tue(baru kuar dari kerinchi link punye tol-jalan tue kan tinggi..klo silap corner mau jatuh dalam gaung mane ntah..lg pon aku gune smart tag so mmg akan termasuk kat lane laju dulu la kan baru pelahan2 nk kesot ke lane slow...ade 2 lane je pon)..ngokngek punye org.

Kesian kat anak aku kat sebelah tekejut dengan hon bunyi cam kentut tue..nasib die ok pagi tadi..xde la merengek ke ape. Baik jer duduk dalam car seat. Aku nak ketepi tak boleh sbb ade plak kete kancil so duduk je la lane tu(ala kejap jer pon sbb klo kedepan sikit dah ade 3 lane...xsabar punye org). klo die langgar die la byr..mengelabah sgt tue kenape..lepas die potong aku kat depan tue pon die kene block dengan 4 buah kete..ahaha..puas hati aku..

owh ha lupe...pagi ni fea ikut aku pegi keje then mak aku amek die kat tempat keje..mak mertua aku demam..kesian die..smlm pon adik ipar aku yang jage fea..esok tak tau la macam mane ni..

Anyway, aku nk cakap la sikit. Orang2 pakai kete besar ni tak payah la nk buli orang pakai kete kecik...respect la sikit..org lain pon ade equal rights jugak keatas jalan raya yang digunekan..

macam semalam, mentang2 la bwk kete honda tetibe jer nak hon suami aku sbb nk park kat tepi...bukannye org tak bagi signal...siolan punye org..xpasal..

Aku n hubby sejak ade anak ni mmg pemandu yang berkhemah abis la..ye la bile dah ade anak dok pikir jer anak..xnk la anything bad happen ke ape..

owh lagi satu aku tak puas ati dgn van vannete (camni ke eja..ntah laa) aku dah stereotype kan sume van jenis ni mmg kurang hajar punye org..bawak macam tooot tooott...amboih, macam awk sorg jer boleh gune jalan ni..aku pon byr cukai jalan tau

ahaha...xpasal emo plak..meh kite bertukar mood...

Ho yeah....my first award dapat dari Ayatt...thanks manyak2 ye..

Alamak kene tag org yang malash nieh...

Rules for these brilliant award:
1. copy paste the award at your blog once you got it
2. make an entry if this is like a GRAMMY award =P
3. tag 6 other blogger
4. never break the chain please (optional)


so watch out for the names here,
YOU HAVE BEEN AWARDED;
1) wun
2) shasha
3) krsty
4) anis
5) diane
6) diana

My wall paper

Hehe..saja letak ini..Ini adalah wall paper kat comp di ofis..hehe...tgk ade gambo sape kat corner tue..nk tulis blog but not in the mood yet..hehe

yang skin kat balakang tue aku main lukis sendiri jer, time bosan ape lagi bukak jer paint and conteng2 then colour la..hehe..tau mcm hodoh tp suke plak tgk..hehe

What's next!

During those times when hubby and me were still courting I did not have any interest. Like hubby, his interests are in music, football and photography but me? nothing.

Medela Harmony - Waiting for Jannah to send this pump~ can't wait

When we got married and I was pregnant with our daughter I started to develop interest in baby stuffs like strollers, car seats, bottles, beddings, toys, cloth diapers and breast pumps(it counts because it's a baby related thing) excluding clothes. Up until today I think that I'm still obsess with baby stuffs. I love it when my friends ask about which bottle do I think is good, my opinions on the best pump, or what kind of strollers which is practical for traveling.

Now, I think it is time for me to move on~ I've been thinking lately what do I really want to do next. I mean I can't be stuck with searching for babies stuff until I'm 4o can I.

Courtesy of wondermilk cuppacakes

The first option is to start baking. Since my dream is to open up a bakery one day so to master all the baking skills I better start from now I think. I used to love baking back when I was in the UK where all the ingredients are cheap like whip cream and fine quality flour but over here it's a little bit pricey. And since we live on our own, we don't have an oven and a mixer yet. So need to save up for that first. We did have enough money to buy an oven but i could not find the right one. When I found one, it was no longer in stock so we had to wait another month. By that time we spent the money on other things instead. hehe

The second option is doing felt crafts. It's quite interesting. I was inspired by liyana's blog and her friend's blog. I like it because the things they sew from felt are soo cute. You have to be really creative in this area. I was thinking of stitching flash cards made of felt for my daughter Sofeah. I love doing crafts from time to time but then again I think this interest would die out as I'm not that rajin la~.

So to my friends out there, what do you think I should pursue next?

My emotions~

Can I do things that I want to do for a change?

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I hate this feeling called guilt and conscience~
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I'm not happy~
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I'm torn in between~
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I have to satisfy everybody? impossible~
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I want my way~
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Tired
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Exhausted
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I need rest
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Hate working on Saturdays~
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Need more time to spend with my NEW family~
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I have a new family now
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My obligations now is towards my husband n my family
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Feel like flying away
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I need a holiday
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but that's just running away~
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I feel like crying
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but it won't help much
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Every time i tried to escape there's always something pulling me back
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I don't want to carry this burden anymore
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Why can't they understand~
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They need to let go~
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otherwise forever my conscience will bug me
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and never will I rest in Peace~

~~UNhappy Me~~

Adakah anda prejudis?

Perbualan;

1) Si A: Selalu makan sorg ke?
Si B: A'ah, kat company tu saya sorg jer melayu, yang lain chinese diorg pi mkn kat tempat
non-halal.
Si A: wah, tanak tukar keje ke?(muka terkejut)
Si B: (dalam hati... e'eh nape nk tukar keje pulak) hmm, tengah cari keje barulah sbb dok jauh.

2) Si C: Nak mengajar kat college T*** risau skit la sbb ramai bangsa asing. Tau la diorg ni
macam mane..heh
Si D: ha tue la...lagi2 bangsa C*** diorg ni dah la kedekut, macam2 hal la. Bangsa I**** pon
same..tah paper..tak betul
Si C: Tapi tak sume macam tue..ade je yang baik
Si D: mmg ade la tapi kebayakannye macam tue

3) Si E: wah ko nak mengajar kat College T*** biar betul. ko tau tak kat sane ramai C***. Diorg
ni susah sikit nak mengajar. Nakal. Paham2 je la kan. Lagi2 swasta ni.
Si F: Owh yeh. tapi tak sume macam tue kan..hmm

Kenapa kite selalu labelkan bangsa ini itu dan bangsa itu ini. Tidak kah kita sedar bahawa semua insan di dunia ini datang dari Allah S.W.T. Semuanya sama tak kira bangsa. Nak kate C*** kedekut, corrupt, berkira la ape. Macam la bangsa M***** tue bagus sangat. Allah telah mencipta pelbagai kaum supaya kita berkenalan antara satu sama lain bukannya untuk kita cari keburukkan mereka.

Ye, aku mengaku bahawa dulu aku pernah tergolong dalam invidu yang mengata bangsa lain itu ini tetapi setelah bekerja di company yang aku seorang sahaja melayu dan yang lain semua cina telah mengajar aku supaya tidak lagi menjadi prejudis. Hendak tahu mengapa?

1) Pada mulanya saya telah di offer pekerjaan di satu kolej dimana 98% adalah bangsa melayu kemudian saya ditolak kerana saya disahkan mengandung. Bangsa sendiri sanggup mengetepikan saya disaat saya betul2 memerlukan kerja. Saya mengandung sahaja bukannya saya ade sakit kronik ke.

2) Setelah 3 bulan mengandung, saya dapat panggilan untuk temu duga. Saya beritahu awal2 bahawa saya mengandung kerana tidak mahu membuang masa mereka. Walaupun saya sudah nyatakan keadaan saya, company ini besungguh-sungguh hendak saya datang untuk temu duga. Akhirnya saya dapat juga kerja di company yang 100% cina kecuali saya. Tengok bertapa baik dan mulianya mereka kerana menerima saya. Tidak memandang rendah terhadap saya dan terima saya kerana saya kebolehan saya dan bukan kerana saya berbadan dua.

3) Sedang saya sarat lagi megandung saya dapat lagi satu panggilan untuk temu duga. Ini perbualan saya antara interviewer itu.

Saya: Saya mengandung 8 bulan dah ni, boleh ke?
Si minah: eh kenapa pula? datang je la
Saya: ye la separuh company tanak orang mengandung ni
Si Minah: Ala company lain tue mengada2 jer. Datang la, look forward seeing you.
Saya: owh terima kasih2..hehe

Ini juga merupakan company cina. Tengok sape yang prejudis dan kedekut sekarang ni.

4) Walaupun saya seorang sahaja melayu yang bekerja di syarikat ini, mereka tetap memberi layanan yang baik. Tidak ada prejudis. Kadang2 ada juga mereka ajak makan bersama di kedai mamak supaya saya tidak keseorangan. Mereka juga pernah cuba mencarikan seorang lagi pekerja melayu untuk teman saya. Tetapi dia tidak kerja lama kerana dapat tawaran untuk melanjutkan pelajaran.

Senang kate kita tidak boleh prejudis dan labelkan setiap orang itu hanya berdasarkan kaum sahaja. Get to know them as an individual then you'll know the real them rather than just judge them at first sight according to their race.

Tak perlu la nak bangga sangat dengan bangsa M*****. Setiap orang ada kelemahan masing2 yang tidak mengikut bangsa.

Fikirkan lah ye~

6 amalan harian seorang Muslimah~

Setiap hari Khamis dalam perjanan pulang ke rumah kami suamiku akan kongsi bersama ilmu yang telah beliau pelajari semasa mendengar tazkirah tengah hari di pejabatnya. Semalam adalah tentang enam perkara wanita perlu lakukan dari hadith yang di huraikan oleh Imam Al-Ghazali.

Pertama - Masuk sahaja waktu terus pergi menunaikan solat.
Kedua - baca Al-Quran setiap hari.
Ketiga - membaca satu hadith setiap hari kepada anaknya.
Keempat - mengamalkan membaca doa harian.
Kelima - hidup secara sederhana.
Keenam - memberi motivasi kepada suami, anak-anak dan juga orang disekeliling.

Saya akan sedaya upaya mempraktikkan dalam kehidupan seharian saya.

Off topik sket, setiap insan di dunia ini milik Allah S.W.T. Kita tidak ada hak mengaku bahawa suami atau isteri mahupun anak kita adalah milik kita. Sebagai isteri yang solehah kita tidak ada hak untuk menghalang suami dari menikahi wanita lain jika suami cukup syarat untuk menikahi perempuan itu. Ini adalah hak yang diberikan oleh Allah S.W.T kepada lelaki. Siapalah kita menidakkan hak itu. Anak juga bukan milik kita. Kita hanya diberi amanah dari Allah S.W.T untuk menjaga dan mendidik anak-anak dengan baik sahaja.

Fikirkan lah ye~

One month to go~

Children do grow faster than you think. Before you know it, they've already graduated from college and got married and started to have their own children. We as parents getting older by the day and did not realise how time flew soo fast and still wondering how we got there in the first place and how it turn out to be that way. Well in my case my darling daughter will start on solid food in one months time. It seems like it was yesterday she was born.

At the age of 4 months old Sofeah has already discovered her hands, fingers and foot. She'll put any of those in her mouth and suck them whenever she gets the chance to. Sometimes her toys or our hands will end up in her mouth too. By the time she reached 4 months and 2 weeks old, everytime she sees me or her ayah eat she will imitate us chew our food and drool. I pity her at times but I know her stomach, intestines and kidneys are not ready for solid foods yet until she reaches 6 months old. This is because she is exclusively breastfeeding, unlike babies that drink formula milk their intestines are more mature to accept solid foods as early as 4 months old. Babies that drinks formula milk, their intestines works twice as hard to process the formula milk compared to babies being breastfed. Breast milk substances are finer compared to formula milk. So until then we can not feed her any solids.

Now, Sofeah has turned 5 months old. Still drooling whenever we ate our dinner. This is what I always say to her each time "only one month to go, be patient OK. I'll feed you plain porridge and some apple puree"(yes, i do speak in English to her. We're practicing OPOL- one parent one language). Only one month to go I'm so hyped to give Sofeah solids. I've collected some recipes from the net for me to cook for her and I've also learnt how to store them like EBM. Since babies only eat 1-2 spoon of solids per feeding as an introductory to solids, I can't be cooking just 1-2 spoon of food only can I. So I'll need to organize it and store it in the freezer. Even though hubby suggests that we can just go out and buy those baby food in the jar to make things easier for me of course but I still think it's healthier this way. We don't know how the bottle foods are processed do we plus we can save a lot.

Below are some basic guidelines for me in feeding Sofeah. Courtesy of mama_miya susuibu.com(It's in bahasa so I've translated it to English)

Servings according to their age

For 6-7 months old baby;

1) drink at least 4 bottles of 5-6oz of breast milk per day
2) servings:
~ 1-3 spoon(sudu besar) of carbohidrate grains (rice, oats, sweet potatoes) = 2 times a day
OR
~ 2-3 spoon of vegetables = 2 times a day
OR
~ 2-3 spoon or 2oz of fruit juice
OR
~ 1-2 spoon of meat or meat alternatives (mashed peas/tofu/beans/anchovies)

Around 3 meals per day

Example:

a) breakfast at 7.30am 1 spoon of oats, 2 spoons of fruit puree
b) lunch 12noon 1 spoons of oat/potato/pasta/rice, 2 spoons of vegetables
c) dinner at 6pm 2 spoons of oats/rice, with tofu/beans/fruit juice

For 8-9 months babies the servings will increase 2-3 spoon for each type of food and drink 6-9oz of milk 3 times a day.

For 9-10 months babies the servings will increase 2-3 spoon from 8-9month old servings and they should drink 9oz of milk three times a day.

For babies 1 year and above:
1) carbohydate grains - 4 spoon, 3 times a day
2) 9oz of milk per day
3) 3-4 spoon of vegetables, 3 times a day
4) 3-4 spoon of fruits, 2 times a day/5oz of juice twice a day
5) 1-2 spoon of meat or meat alternatives, twice a day.

These are only basic guidelines. Some may do it differently.

Besides looking out for baby food recipes I've also looked up the things I need to buy, like the utensils and also the containers that will be used to store her food in the freezer. This is my list;
1) food grinder
2) dadih containers or little containers (since I'll be putting one 1-2 spoon of food in each container, so 1 container per feeding)
3) feeding spoon(maybe rubber base so that it would not injure her gum)

Rasa bersalah~

Sedangku menikmati juadah tengah hari tempoh hari tiba-tiba sahaja datang perasaan sebak di hati ini. Bukannya apa. Sebelum turun untuk makan saya ada terbaca satu blog tentang sepasang suami Isteri yang duduk di hospital dan tidak putus asa berdoa supaya anak keduanya pulih dari komplikasi jantung yang menjadi teruk semakin hari. Aku berasa syukur tak terhingga kerana dikurniakan bayi yang sihat. Alhamdulillah. Begitu tabah sepasang suami isteri itu. Aku tidak dapat bayangkan diriku sendiri bagaimana bila berhadapan dengan situasi begitu.

Di blog yang sama juga ku belek-belek entry yang telah lama ditulis. Ada tentang ayahnya meminta maaf kepada anak sulungnya kerana tidak dapat meluangkan masa yang banyak untuk anaknya dan terpaksa bekerja keras untuk mencari rezeki. Semasa membaca entry ini air mataku mengalir kerana terbayangkan anakku dirumah. Aku tiba-tiba sahaja rasa bersalah sangat dengan anakku kerana aku juga begitu. Awal pagi sudah keluar untuk ke pejabat dan balik lewat petang. Malah hari Sabtu juga saya perlu kerja sekerat hari. Hanya hari ahad sahaja saya ada masa seharian dengan anak tercinta.

Namun begitu saya tetap bersyukur kerana saya masih ada sedekit masa untuk suami dan anak saya. Ada yang kurang bernasib baik dari saya. walaupun hari sabtu saya bekerja sekerat hari saya anggap itu sebagai giliran suami saya pula bermanja-manja dengan anak saya kerana dia sering merungut anak selalu berkepit dengan saya sahaja apabila masa menyusu.

Sekian sudah catitan saya yang sekema ini. Maaf jika ianya seperti berterabur dan perkataan yansg saya gunakan tidak sesuai.

Smile Alwayz~

It's an obsession

I think I'm obsses with shopping baby stuff. owh let me rephrase that. I am just obsses without 'think'..haha. The thing is I just can't leave it alone. There's always something to buy for Sofeah or for someone else's baby. I just can't stop. Hubby always makes fun of me. He'll ask the same question "ha, ade lagi nk beli barang baby? nak masuk dalam budjet ni, asyik membeli jer awk ni". Fair enough, he always puts aside some sum for me to spend on baby's stuff.

I just love to go into baby's shops wherever I come across one. Every time we pass the stores hubby will always ask whether I want to go in or not. I know secretly he himself loves to look at baby's stuff too.

Now, that we have internet access wherever we are, everything is just a click away. This makes it more easier for me to buy stuff for Sofeah. I always have the need to shop for my baby and not so much for me. It's been ages since I bought myself a handbag even though I terribly need one now and shoes. The extra money that we have now is focus on buying Sofeah's stuff. It's endless.

So tell me am I addicted to buying baby's stuff or it's a necessities.

Right now I'm looking for :

We need to buy this bumbo seat as soon as possible as Sofeah wants some one to pick her up all the time. Also she can play and watch telly while sitting in this seat.

We buy CDs from time to time. Still scouting for them. We want to save the environment as well as bringing up a healthy baby.Maxi Cosi Priori or tobi. Need to buy this when Sofeah turns 1, she can't fit in her cabriofix anymore at this age.
Maybe we''ll buy this phil n teds stroller when Sofeah has younger siblings. So cute aren't they.
Or maybe I'll buy this maclaren techno XLR for our second child. We'll see..heheI'll buy this medela freestyle when I've become a zillionaire. I donate some to other mommies as well..hehe

I think that is all for now. Believe me when I wake up tommorrow morning I'll have something else for me to buy and I'll start searching for those on the net.

It's not easy

Not easy being a wife, a mother and a working mother all together.

Sure one can cope but I'm just saying it's not easy.

You have to be patient most of the time.

You don't know the meaning of tired anymore.

All you do is keep going and do the same routine everyday.

Sure sometimes your tired, sleepy, hungry but you put everything aside trying not to be selfish to attend to your husband and child mainly because you love them soo much.

Everyday waking up at 3.30am to feed your child then wake up again to pump out the milk for your child. Sometime in between 6 - 7am change your child's diaper, get ready for work, make breakfast and feed your child again then of to work. During lunch time is another pump session. At home by 6pm and feed the child again until the child. by 8pm need to get dinner ready and at ten sterile the bottles for the next day. You'll be in bed by 10.30pm because of the exhaustion.

Even said so, all the things that you've done people still say that you're selfish, self centered, boring, lembab, selalu meminta tak pernah cukup(always asking), countless of times being shouted at and even say some stuffs that just meant to hurt you but they did not intend to do it in the first place.

All you can do now is just be patient, keep quite and don't argue because at the end of the day you'll get hurt even more. Sometimes it's better to keep them all to yourself.

The only thing that keeps you going is your husband and your child.

Lucky you to have the person you love with you everyday.

I solute to mothers out there who is a wife, a mother, a working mother and a student.

Alhamdulillah~

Picnic

We celebrated my friend's birthday by a picnic at the park (SS7, Kelana Jaya) near our home. It's a walking distance since we don't have a car so it's ideal to do it there. We had fun.The weather was also fine. We were at the park until 12 p.m. Even though it seems late but because there were so many trees we did not feel the heat at all. Here are the pictures, Sofeah seems to enjoy herself as well.







Smile Alwayz~

The hard times

Once they cried in each others arms as they did not know what the future hold.

Their savings running low day by day.

Only one of them had a job at the time but still struggling with the job because the real world shocked her.

The other half still searching for a job. He did not care what it is. What's for certain he needs a job desperately as a new baby will be arriving soon.

One time he walked all over to find a job until his legs shook as it is a sign for him to stop but he did not give up.

And now, thinking back the hard times they went through they are now grateful how they end up the way they are living life. They can now smile and leave it all behind behind.

Alhamdulillah

Tagged by Diane~

~JUST FELT LIKE IT~

5 Characteristics of your dream guy/girl
1. Caring +
2. Loving +
3. neat and tidy +
4. Cool +
5. Funny +

= my hubby la

5 Characteristics that you have never like in a guy/girl
1. smoker!(agree with diane)
2. cheapskate (same as above)
3. arrogant (good2 Diane for the answers)
4. Emotional (xcool la dude)
5. annoying / likes to ask stupid questions (ahaha..betul ni..same lagi dgn Diane can't stand annoying people)

5 feelings that you have when you're out with the one you admire
1. Blessed
2. Overjoyed
3. Giddy (mcm budak skolah dpt kaler pensel kotak besar yg baru)
4. Peaceful
5. want to be with them foreva
(sume sama cam Diane coz malas..haha)

5 places that you want to travel with your loved one
1. Makkah
2. Paris
3. England
4. New Zealand
5. America (just felt writing it down..no specific reason)

5 special things that you would give to your loved one
1. My heart and soul
2. The love through cooking and baking
3. Give them extra attention
4. All that I have?..hehe
5. A DSLR camera?..haha..can?

5 songs that you will sing to your partner
*sorry, skipping this part* --- yup skipping as well..dun know that many songs

5 friends that you want to tag
1. krsty
2. maha
3. diana
4. anis
5. Shasha

A slight collision

This is the third time me and hubby went back to our kampung since we got married. The first trip me and hubby went back to Rompin with my mother in law, sister in law and brother in law in one car, it was on Chinese new year. The second time we went back because of our wedding ceremony in Pekan, and this is the third time, only this time we're bringing Sofeah with us and also this would be the first time we planned the trip on our own which means neither parents were with us, just the three of us. It's something we looked forward to for months since hubby's grandma and my grandpa hasn't met Sofeah yet.

Our journey started very early on Saturday(on my birthday) morning. It was 4.35am. I woke earlier than usual because I need to do my pumping session then feed Sofeah and tidy up some stuffs that we want to bring with us. This was a fine morning so we thought. We do'a for a safe journey before departing. Hubby drove his usual speed not too fast or too slow whilst he listens to his favourite music. On the highway was a breeze. No worries about cars over taking and also cars that wanted to make left or right turns whenever they like.

After the 45 minutes drive on the highway we then had to use roads with one lanes on each side. It is very dangerous to overtake whenever you like. Your timing is crucial. If you get the calculations wrong you might end up in a fatal accident that can take your life in a split second. Anyway, hubby drove very carefully on these narrow roads. Overtaking when it's safe enough. I as usual when he over takes will look the other way as I'm scared and when he's in the right lane again I'll look back on the road.

We stopped at a huge mosque and did our Subuh prayer. We had to take turns because one of us has to look after Sofeah. After everything settled and we took off again. It was in the last thirty minutes of our journey that this unexpected event happened. Hubby sang to his favourite song. He did not overtake but he slowed down because the vehicle in front of him somewhat drove a little bit peculiar. Hubby even said "macam pelik jer lori ni" and in a split second the lorry seemed to be closer to us and hubby braked abruptly and the tire screeched against the road then came the loud bang. Our car hit the lorry in front. I was shocked and I turned towards Sofeah. Thank God she was OK. She was awake at that time and playing with her toys in her car seat joyfully as if something never happened. Quickly hubby parked the car aside and angrily confronted the lorry driver. It seems that that driver did not signaled as he wanted to make a right turn and also his brakes were very dim and it is unnoticeable until you are about 1 meter from the lorry.The place where the accident occurred was at a secluded place. Not many cars use this road. Either it's because it was too early in the morning or it's this narrow road where people prefer the highway instead. So anyway I tried to contact my parents and my mother in law about the accident but there was no signal. I had to walk a little bit further up the road away form where hubby and the lorry driver was. I couldn't leave Sofeah alone So I walked up the road while carrying Sofeah. It was intense. I mean the situation where I was in shocked and I did not know what to do also we were at a foreign place alone. I panicked a little. Fortunately the driver agreed to settle everything at a police station nearby.

As we arrived at the police station I let hubby settle what needed to be. I carried Sofeah and walked around the police station because she didn't want to sit in the car. As I talked to Sofeah and carrying her around a policewoman approached me, we had a lot to chat about as I found out that she too had a son around the same age as Sofeah. Everyone at the police station was friendly which is good as some aren't that friendly and more cranky.

Hubby drove back to Rompin slowly and very carefully. We don't want anything else happening to the already rammed up car.

Even though the accident occur which none of us would want to happen, I still am grateful because we are safe (Alhamdulillah), no one was injured physically nor mentally. The car can still be driven even though the boot look absolutely hideous. If you'd seen it you'll think twice, how could this car can still be on the road. With this hideous looking car we reached Rompin which is 30 minutes drive from the point of the accident, then the next day drove of to Pekan(an hour drive), in the evening we drove off to Kg. New Zealand (one and a half hours drive)then the next day which is Monday we drove back to Kelana Jaya(two hours plus). It is a miracle that we came back safely with the car.

On our way to Pekan there was a car being pulled out of a river. By the state of the car it made me wonder how the passengers inside survived the crash. Coincidentally, the victims were sent to a hospital in Pekan where my grandmother was taken because of an emergency case as well. What I heard about their injury was scary. It haunted me and somewhat traumatize me, it made me think that the crash could have been worse than it is. I kept on thinking it could have been us and at the same time I really am grateful we survived the crash the day before.

I'd say this is the most memorable birthday I've ever had. I had the most meaningful gift ever which is my hubby and daughter still with me today. For the drivers out there please be careful when you're driving, sometimes it just happens even though it's not your fault in the first place.

Tagged by krsty~

Something I do if I'm bored..hehe..curi mase keje..ishk2~

TAG 1
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 4 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog

Name : Faridatul, kaklong, hon bun, syg, Ummi(proud to be one)
Sisters : 2 (kakngah n kakcik)
Brothers : 2 (man n nan)
Shoe size : 4-5
Height : 149cm
Where do you live : Kelana Jaya
Have you ever been on a plane : yup to London, Newcastle, Pahang n Penang(last 2 years)
Swam in the ocean : owh no.
Fallen asleep at school : haha..tons of time
Broken someone’s heart : yup..and not sorry..hmm
Fell off your chair : nope..
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : ahaha..couldn't careless..I'll just go to sleep on my comfy bed..
Saved e-mails : I have over 1000 e-mails..mostly from hubby(we mail to each other during work..hehe)
What is your room like : Simple (a bed, 2 bedside table, a wardrobe, a dressing table together with a stool, hubby's desktop, Sofeah's Cot and Sofeah's chest of drawers)
What’s right beside you: my colleague..hehe
What is the last thing you ate : chocolate twiggies..nyum2 (it,s my breakfast)

Ever had…
Chicken pox : of course
Sore throat : rarely have them
Stitches : just had them 2 months ago after delivering Sofeah..hehe(the pain is unbearable..uuuhhhh)
Broken nose : close to it..heh..(hurts like hell, my sister was scolded by my parents..haha-i think it was myfault really)

Do you Believe in love at first sight : yea, that's how i met hubby..
Like picnics : of course..who doesn't?

Who was/were…
The last person you danced with : hubby of course..haha..i literally forced him to dance with me
Last made you smile : hubby, n my cute baby Sofeah
You last yelled at : no one..hehe..

Today did you…
Talk to someone you like : sure..talk to him n her everyday..hubby n Sofeah
Kissed anyone : hubby n Sofeah(kiss them goodbye before going to work..huhue)
Get sick : hmm not recently
Talk to an ex : ahaha..nope..
Miss someone : hubby n my lovely daughter Sofeah

Who do you really hate: no one..
Do you like your hand-writing : a big no,no
Are your toe nails painted : nope
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : Sofeah?..haha..kidding, couldn't fit into her tiny cot
What color shirt are you wearing now : not wearing one..i'm wearing a baju kurung
Are you a friendly person : Sure am
Do you have any pets : nope..to be honest I dun like them..heh
Do you sleep with the TV on : seldomly, if I'm sleepy I'll always sleep on my comfy bed hugging Sofeah
What are you doing right now : ignoring the pile of work I have...hehe
Can you handle the truth : depends on what truth that need to be told..usually can
Are you closer to your mother or father : my mother
Do you eat healthy : yup..i need to..still eating for two..for Sofeah
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex : noo..
If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to : hubby, otherwise I'll just sleep
Are you loud or quiet most of the time : quiet i think
Are you confident : sure am

5 things I was doing 10 years ago :-
1. Studied at IIUM
2. Got to know n marry him hubby
3. Graduated from IIUM
4. Moved out from parents house into our own apartment
5. Got pregnant and delivered a beautiful baby girl named Sofeah

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire :-
1. Sedekah to the needy
2. Perform Hajj with hubby
3. open up my own bakery(yes it's my dream)
4. Buy baby stuff
5. Honeymoon in Paris

5 of my bad habits :-
1. Like to waste time
2. procastinator
3. always think negative
4. Bite my nails
5. keeps on forgetting things

5 places I’ve lived/living :-
1. Kuantan, Pahang, Malaysia
2. Bandar Baru Bangi, Selangor, Malaysia
3. Colchester, Essex, England
4. Benwell, Newcastle, England
5. Kelana Jaya, Selangor, Malaysia

4 peep to tag this survey :-
1. wun
2. Anis
3. Diana
4. Shasha